Random Feelings

I don't know what it is, but i just feel so happy right now!
Maybe its the fact that I'm around the people that care about me the most...
No...that cant be it...
I don't know why i feel so positive, but i do.
I just hope you do too.

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Today i went to the library to wait for some friends, but when they didn;t show, i went outside to look for them. I looked around outside and saw 1/3 of them. (honestly, i forgot his name... So emberasing..) I asked him what he was doing out side and he said, "I cant go inside, i'm banned." So we waited outside for the other two.
He said, "I think i see one of them walking, wait theres the other!" and i go running twards them, just being an idiot. I wasnt planning on hugging Jessie (one of the three was Jessie and the other was Erika) but she told me that Ryan (another friend) gave her my glasses that i had left on my desk to give to me. So i end up hugging her.
When we get to the front of the library, We walk inside and just sit there really, not doing any actual readding. That is until Jessie finds some gay books. (litteraly, the books where about the lives of different gay people.) So we each skim through them and after Erika had to leave, it was just Jessie and i. She needed to go meet one of her profesors, so we walked a ways until we got to a really mellow, really soothingly calm classroom. I wilked iside with awe and looked aroung. It felt very home-like. Jessie and i walked around the classroom and talked, until i noticed a guy who had the body of a playgirl modle! He was tall, had huge biceps, but had a cute face and seemed very nice. I wanted to talk to him, but he wat too old for me, and i didnt have the nerve to say anything.
After we left the classroom, Jessie and I walked around campus and sat on a bench that seemed to have no buisness there. We talked some more until another friend walks by and sits with us. He name was Adrian, and she is really sweet.
For a while we talked nonsence, then Jessie starts seduceing me and then Adrian joins in. I dah two girls touching my upper body, and i am gay... why couldnt it have been two guys!?
Anyways... Adrian gets off and starts to record Jessie while she tried to seduce me, but she kept laughing,and the "sexy video" was ruind, so we turned it into a random rant about fluffers and other random stuff. BTW, a fluffer is someone in a porn video that keeps the male actor aroused. HAHA!
During our video, another friend comes running out of nowhere, right twards me! I try ti get out of the way, but he grabs me, and hugs me. Then he jumps on me and im holding him while hes on my chest, while Adrian is recording! His name was Ryan BTW.
So after Ryan left, we talk some more, then we go our seperate ways, i know,...sad...I didnt want to leave, but there was a ton of things i had to take care of.
We said good-bye and that was that.
It was the most fun i've had in a while! I just hope the future stays positive and bright.

I Miss The Way Things Where

Ive been really sad lately, i really miss my old friends. Ashley was_ is a really good friend of mine. She is always full of life, so spontaneous. I miss the conversations we would have, the laughs we would share, but what i really miss is how she made me feel safe. I never hid my true identity when i was with her, she loved_ loves me for who i am. And i love her too, no matter what..
I also miss one of my first friends, Samuel, he was so random, but always had_ has a big heart. Connor is a friend who i wouldn't trade for anything in the whole world. Stephen is another friend i had, so intelegent, always dedicated, and extremely constructive. I know Stephen and I had are quarles but we always got through it. Ricky is a friend i can always count on, he helps when help is needed, has a big heart, and is so generous.
To name a few more awesome people ive come to know and love over the years, Chelsea, Patricia, Autumn, Allison, Juan, Alex, Roger, and there are probably a few more people that i am forgetting, but i love you too!
And to you, reader, i may or may not know you, but i just want you to know, no matter who you are, no matter where you are, i love you too, with all my heart, as i do the people i have named.
Be safe_be sane_be,LOVED.

I Think I Thought Wrong...

The guy who has been handsy with me has been even more handsy with me lately, and im starting to think, he might just be hiding in the closet. Im not going to persue this, but if he is interested, then we'll see what happens.

I Thought Again...

Today at around lunch time, i went with a group of friends to have lunch at their lunch spot, just to mix things up a bit. There was this gut who was constantly touching me, not in private areas, but on my upper body. He would put his arm around mine as we walked and he would smile at me, and at times he would feel the back of my head. I know weird, but it was like he was gropeing my head. I started to think, maybe he has feelings for me, so i put my arm around him as we walked to get food, he turned and smiled at me.
Later when we where walking alone, we pass a really hot woman that i didn't notice, but he did. He said, "Dude, did you see her tits, they where awesome!"
I was puzzled for a minute until i got the courage to ask him, "So... are you, or are you not?" "Huh, Oh, no I just play around like that, i'm not gay."
So after that little conversation, things got a bit akward, so we went seperate ways.

A Rotten Easter

Yesterday was Easter, I had no intrest in partaking in any activities what so ever. But, when I was in my room doing some work, I heard a yell coming from the back yard. So i dashed out of my room to see what was going on, and when i got to the back yard. I see my little sister holding an Easter egg in one hand and saying, "It smells really bad!" So i grab one that was hidding in the bushes and smell it. Turns out, these eggs where hidden on Friday, so they went really bad. My friend came soon after and he suggested we go egging houses, so I say what the hell, lets go for it!
We drive down the street and up to those fancy houses that are up on the mountain and we toss some rotting eggs out the window to some parked cars and some houses. Yeah I had a good time.
My friend was being stupid and threw and egg out his window to oncoming traffic when we got to the main street. The egg hit the on coming car and I hear the car swerve. I said to him, "Dude, what the fuck man! As funny as that is we could really hurt someone!"
After that, we went bck home and had a few..
I don't even want to tell you what happened the next mornning.. talk about the worst hang-over on earth. Well, thats karma for you.