I was at the ligrary with a few of my friends, you know, just hanging out. We talked about random toppics which really should not have been brought up, but we did anyways. HA! So we taked, and decided to grab a bite to eat. When we got back to the library, one of the guys that i work with sees us and starts to bite a piece of my food from my hand. haha.
After we eat, we head inside to talk about more nonsence. Once Jessie left (one of my female friends) I was stuck with one of her friends and the guy who tried to eat my food, and he seems gay by the way. So we talk and stuff is shared, and i found out, he's not gay, his mannerisms are just feminine! I never would have guessed.
Once Jessie's friend left, the guy and I started going into more personal conversation. & no we did not hook-up, we just takled orientation wise, we, he talked about orientation.
It was libberatting to finaly talk amungst people who don't care what the hell you are, and who are just as odd and different as you are aswell.
P.S.+
Hope i spelled your name right Jessie, and if not, sorry...
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Is it a Crime?
Okay okay... remember how i said i got a new grilfriend, well this is what happened after i posted the previous post.
I went to the gym to work out a bit, you know, to keep in shape. I go into the locker room after i'm done working out, and i planed on taking a shower there. (and to anyone who thinks i'm a wierdo, i dodn't want to do home all sweatty and smelly). I see a guy that i've never seem before, and he was 4-5 lockers away from mine. So we started talking, just harmless and meanningless conversations. I started to get undressed as we talked and i walked to the showers with nothing but my boxers on and a lowel in my hand. I turn on the shower and start wetting myself. I soon hear the same guy come into the showers aswell. We start talking about nonsence and crap (litteraly). We finished showering at about the same time, so me caried our conversation back to out lockers.
I picked up my pants and told him, "Turn around, i need to get dessent." So he dose, and i also turn and put on my spare boxers and pants. When i was about to zip up my zipper, i turn around and i see him staring at me, smileing, and he was naked! (I think he was going to put on his pants when i tuned aroung). I said to him in a flabergasted tone, "Are you gay?" He looked at my toplessness for a moment and said, "Well that depends if you are, are you..?" He said rather shy. I took a momen to respond, "well i was at one point, then i went Bisexual, then i was hetterosexual for a while, so i'm not entirely sure." He finished getting dressed, so did i, then he said in a dissapointed tone, "Well if your not, then thats a shame, but if you where, that would be nice." He winked at me. I finished getting dressed and i left the gym to go home.
The rest of the night, i lied in bed, thinking about what i should do. Mercia is such an amazing person, funny outgouing, makes me laugh, but i don't really feel the same way. And this guy i barely met, and he was peeping at me, but he has such a nice body, and great looks, and is intelectual in his conversations.
I didn't know what to do, i was caught between 2 interesting people. I wanted to tell her the truth, but i couldn't do that to her. I tought about just breaking up with her just so that i'm not in that akward possition all the time.I was also thinking that i should just be with her until she gets borde of me. But i couldn't take it, i had to tell her, so heres how it went, "Hey Mercia, I've been thinking...", "You want to break up don't you..?", "Please?" "Thank God! It was getting really akward. And besides we are more like friends than anything.", "Yeah, so we're cool?" "Yeah."
So yeah. it was a win win situation. I'm free to have anyone i wast (preferably a guy) and Mercia and i are still friends. But why do i feel like i did something wrong?
I went to the gym to work out a bit, you know, to keep in shape. I go into the locker room after i'm done working out, and i planed on taking a shower there. (and to anyone who thinks i'm a wierdo, i dodn't want to do home all sweatty and smelly). I see a guy that i've never seem before, and he was 4-5 lockers away from mine. So we started talking, just harmless and meanningless conversations. I started to get undressed as we talked and i walked to the showers with nothing but my boxers on and a lowel in my hand. I turn on the shower and start wetting myself. I soon hear the same guy come into the showers aswell. We start talking about nonsence and crap (litteraly). We finished showering at about the same time, so me caried our conversation back to out lockers.
I picked up my pants and told him, "Turn around, i need to get dessent." So he dose, and i also turn and put on my spare boxers and pants. When i was about to zip up my zipper, i turn around and i see him staring at me, smileing, and he was naked! (I think he was going to put on his pants when i tuned aroung). I said to him in a flabergasted tone, "Are you gay?" He looked at my toplessness for a moment and said, "Well that depends if you are, are you..?" He said rather shy. I took a momen to respond, "well i was at one point, then i went Bisexual, then i was hetterosexual for a while, so i'm not entirely sure." He finished getting dressed, so did i, then he said in a dissapointed tone, "Well if your not, then thats a shame, but if you where, that would be nice." He winked at me. I finished getting dressed and i left the gym to go home.
The rest of the night, i lied in bed, thinking about what i should do. Mercia is such an amazing person, funny outgouing, makes me laugh, but i don't really feel the same way. And this guy i barely met, and he was peeping at me, but he has such a nice body, and great looks, and is intelectual in his conversations.
I didn't know what to do, i was caught between 2 interesting people. I wanted to tell her the truth, but i couldn't do that to her. I tought about just breaking up with her just so that i'm not in that akward possition all the time.I was also thinking that i should just be with her until she gets borde of me. But i couldn't take it, i had to tell her, so heres how it went, "Hey Mercia, I've been thinking...", "You want to break up don't you..?", "Please?" "Thank God! It was getting really akward. And besides we are more like friends than anything.", "Yeah, so we're cool?" "Yeah."
So yeah. it was a win win situation. I'm free to have anyone i wast (preferably a guy) and Mercia and i are still friends. But why do i feel like i did something wrong?
Friday, March 19, 2010
An Incoherent Anomaly
To start off, everyone... i'm gay.
Okay... lately I've been feeling a bit depressed because of someting my dad told me four nights ago, it was on my sexual orientation. He said it was an abomination to humanity and that I was a disscrase to the family.
I do not agree with him one bit, but it really got to me. I started feeling depressed as my mind wandered on the toppic. I felt like utter crap. I started thinking," What's the point of living if there is no one to support you when you need it." I was acting like a different person, one that was really ugly inside and just wanted to drop dead.
But today during my lunch break, I met up with one of my female friends, Mercea, and i told her my situation and where I stood. We talked for 20 minutes or so and we some how got off toppic. One thing lead to another, and she told me that she was really interested in me. I was suprised, mainly because she knew I was gay. I'm still confused...
Anyways, we talked about, us, and come to find out, she was so understanding, she and I have so much chemestry it's not even funny. Right now iI am officialy a Heterosexual and iI am not ashamed to say so.
Okay... lately I've been feeling a bit depressed because of someting my dad told me four nights ago, it was on my sexual orientation. He said it was an abomination to humanity and that I was a disscrase to the family.
I do not agree with him one bit, but it really got to me. I started feeling depressed as my mind wandered on the toppic. I felt like utter crap. I started thinking," What's the point of living if there is no one to support you when you need it." I was acting like a different person, one that was really ugly inside and just wanted to drop dead.
But today during my lunch break, I met up with one of my female friends, Mercea, and i told her my situation and where I stood. We talked for 20 minutes or so and we some how got off toppic. One thing lead to another, and she told me that she was really interested in me. I was suprised, mainly because she knew I was gay. I'm still confused...
Anyways, we talked about, us, and come to find out, she was so understanding, she and I have so much chemestry it's not even funny. Right now iI am officialy a Heterosexual and iI am not ashamed to say so.
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